jessiebaby
Posted 5.21PM
Thu 19 Jun 2008
I am 15 years old and for as long as I can remember I have been a 'fussy eater' (I hate that term, it makes it sound as if we do this by choice). The prospect have trying new foods has been something that has constantly haunted me, along with the embarrassment and humiliation that comes when going to friends houses and their parents asking me what I want to eat. I feel so pathetic and isolated when I tell them that basically, all I eat is: chips, potatoes (baked potato has to be just the white bit, no skin. no mashed potatoes either), crisps, biscuits, cereals and toast. As well as some other things such as ice cream and dessert foods. I tend not to have a problem with breakfasts or desserts but infact main meals. This feels like it's beginning to take over my life, friends are constantly going out for meals and I just stay at home because there'll either be nothing on the menu that I will eat or I know just how embarrassed I'll feel when all I order is chips. It's getting to the point where I actually dread leaving the house incase I can't get anything to eat, I'm okay in town centres where there are places like McDonalds, but when it comes to restaurants and peoples houses, I freeze. I am due to go to my boyfriends house for tea tomorrow and I am absolutely dreading it. I've told him i'm a 'fussy eater' but I don't think he realises just how much of an extent it is; I think he thinks i'm just being picky (which I'm not). I don't know what I'm going to do without sounding pathetic or ending up embarrassed as I'm sure his parents will strike a conversation about my rather odd eating habits. But for me trying new food has always been a horrible experience, I find that I won't try anything if I find the smell odd or nasty and I have trouble with different textures and tastes. As yet I have not seen any doctors, physicians, dieticians etc. I think my mum just thinks it's a phase and I'll either break out of it or just carry on how I have been. I don't think she understands what a horrible experience this is for me.
It's been refreshing to say the least, reading some of these comments and knowing I'm not alone, I'm not isolated. I know it doesn't help my problem but it helps my heart. Can anyone tell me if I actually have a phobia of food? I know some of you mention having phobias of food as well as disorders. Any suggestions what this is for me?
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