Posts by: choc4sally

Dawn - how did you get on the programme.
I really need to go to that farm even though I'm finding it hard just watching it. I really do want to be normal and I think this is the way I can do it. I've done the hypnotherapy and I've got a GP who doesn't understand. I even worked as a temp at the local Eating Disorder Clinic and they just laughed at me and said I didn't have an eating disorder, I was just a fussy cow!

I can't tell you how much I hate being the way I am. I'm 48 next week. I'd really like to be able to go out for my 49th next year and have a really nice meal with my friends. I love the ambience of a restaurant but I won't go for the obvious reasons. Maybe if I go to the farm my dreams will come true........

You make me feel normal! I too have had eating problems since a very small child. My mother had to dieticians, pschologists, pshychiatrists etc and they all said "She'll eat when she's ready". When I'm 47 now and I still don't eat properly.

I remember going to one Christmas function and I just ate my roast potatoes and nothing else and someone said "Why aren't you dead?" I eat white bread with no bits. Chips from the chips shop, a limited type of home cooked chips, I'll eat a baked potatoe but only the white bit not the skin and it has to have salt on and nothing else. I eat plain chicken, either roasted or fried on a griddle but there can be no fat on it or sauce or anything else like that. I only put on salt, if there is pepper on it I can't eat it. And then there is the chocolate. Lots of it. I don't buy chocolate in one bar at a time, I buy loads. I always look for 3 for the price of 2 and buy 6. The latest craving is Rolo eggs. My local off licence sells 3 for 99p and I buy 6. I have eaten at least 3 of them by the time I have driven home. I don't even tast the first one it goes down so fast. In my bedroom I have stashed away a box of 48 Cadbury's Creme Eggs and a 36 box of Flyte bars. They are hidden away in my filing cabinet and I eat at least 3 of each a day.

I once went out on a date with a bloke I was really, really keen on. He suggested we go for "a really good curry" and I felt sick. I learned that food was really important to him and I knew it would be a problem. We settled on going to an Italian restaurant because I know you can get plain chicken and chips there. I ate my meal as I always do cutting up the chicken and he said "I've never seen anyone disect a chicken before". Needless to say, he didn't ask me out again.

The silly thing is I love watching food programmes on the television. I love Ready Steady Cook and I adore Masterchef Goes Large. I even fantasise about being on them. I enjoy cooking and I'm told I'm a good cook, I can just never taste anyting as I go along.

If anyone of the producers of Farm of Fussy Eaters reads this forum, I'm begging you to let me come on the next series. I'm desperate to be able to eat normally so that I can go on a diet. I'm really fat with a BMI of about 35 and I just can't diet because of the rubbish food I eat. I really hate my self-image and it is stopping me going out and giving me such self loathing. PLEASE HELP ME.